"Ness! Mom! I have to tell you something crazy that happened today." The first words I heard as my 19 year old brother walked through the garage pantry door as he always does when he comes home from school. I immediately asked him if he was in some kind of danger today or if he was hurt or something, (anything could happen on a daily commute to Provo). Instead of me explaining the story and not giving it justice, I'll copy and paste his experience (With his permission) that he wrote down in his notes as soon as he got to the library at BYU. Read away, guys! :) You won't regret it.
"This morning at about 8:25A.M., I got on the UTA 830 bus route headed to BYU. I made my way to the back where I usually sit, and saw my two returned-missionary buddies entering the bus. Little did I know what would happen next. Not long after, a middle-aged man enters, holding a cigarette, and politely asks the bus driver if this route goes on University Avenue in Provo. The bus driver said yes, and so the man gets on and takes a seat in the front. I notice him talking to people around him, but I wasn't sure what he was saying. I wasn't trying to find out, yet I heard his voice get louder as he moved closer to us in the back. I was feeling somewhat unsure from what I could see. He looked to be flipping open and closed a knife with a long, sharp blade exposed. He got closer looking at each person in search of something that I couldn't figure out. Then he comes to us and says, "Do any of you have a piece of tape?" That was when I noticed that his cigarette was torn almost in half. After realizing he wasn't going to get what he thought three college students might be carrying, he took a seat. Without hesitation he looked into our eyes, and he asked each of us a personal question: "Have you ever done drugs?" We all say no, but he doesn't stop there. With complete humility and immense regret, he tells us to never ever start. "Don't even think about it," he says with sincerity. I could feel the concern in his tone. He said, "if you want my advice, DON'T DO IT!" He then tells us about his past in considerable detail. I could tell he was suffering just telling us about it. I didn't know where he was going with it but as soon as we got over the overpass on University Ave., he starts paraphrasing great doctrine that we as latter-day saints believe in. He knew the story of Alma when he's crying to the Lord and teaching his sons about the pain his sins caused him. I could tell he knew them very well and even talked about Doctrine and Covenants 19 where the atonement is mentioned in great detail. He said he knows Christ feels all our pain. He went on to say, 'Doing bad things seems easy at first, but once you get started you can't stop and the weight of the burden is too much to bare alone. It's all down hill and the backpack you are carrying full of guilt won't come off.' He used his brother (45 yrs old) as an example of someone living good and the great life he's living (blessings because of it) The whole time my friends and I are speechless. The last thing he says is, "I don't let anyone talk bad about Jesus Christ man, he is the only one who understands!" Right then and there my worries washed away because I couldn't think about myself anymore. I wanted to cure this man of his troubles. I know only Christ can do that. He gets off and says, God Bless you! I wanted to give him a hug so bad and tell him that the grace of God can save him! It was our stop to get off and we didn't know how to react. Doug (My buddy) says he couldn't believe what just happened. I could feel the spirit and God's love so strong! This was a message that God sent through this man who was dying spiritually. I got up to the 4th floor of the Harold B. Lee library and cried to my Heavenly Father in gratitude for that man. I prayed for a blessing upon him and his safety that day. He gave me so much in such a short amount of time that I wish I would've told him how I felt. He knew one part of the atonement very well, which is that Christ can succor his children. I know he knows he can be redeemed one day. I just pray that he is able to come back to Christ and feel his grace. In fact, Doug mentioned that that was one thing he was missing - grace (another big part of the atonement). His addictions felt to him like they were too much to overcome. He said he had been battling them for half his life. Oh yeah, and that thing in hand that I thought was a knife was a retractable flip COMB!! I about slapped myself in the face for being so judgmental. I learned so many amazing lessons over the course of that 7 minute bus ride. I'm so immensely grateful for this experience that taught me so much: Lesson to be learned from this:
Have a great rest of your Thursday! It's almost the weekend, be happy!! Ness
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Darrellthanks
3/17/2016 06:28:21 pm
Thanks for sharing. What a great experience :)
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