"So tell me Vanessa, how are you feeling? What is bothering you? How can I help you?" My counselor asked as my eyes were locked with hers and tears streamed down by face. My mind was scrambled, thoughts were racing, and my face was red and hot. I could barely comprehend my own thoughts and feelings let alone put them into words to a complete stranger who had no clue what I was going through. I sat on a tiny couch in a tiny room with bare white walls. The last thing I wanted to do was to talk about my problems, they consumed my thoughts day in and day out, so why in the world would I want to talk about it too?? Counseling... I hated that word and I cringed when it was brought up to me in the beginning weeks of my depression and anxiety. I was not one to open up to people about anything. It seemed like I couldn't even face my own feelings without wanting to run away. I didn't like this reality I was thrown into and I certainly did not want help from anyone. I was bitter, angry, impatient, lonely, numb, and broken. But still I wouldn't let anyone help put my broken pieces back together; I didn't think it was possible. These feelings lasted for what seemed like forever! Until one day I snapped out of it after reading this very quote, "Tests and trials are given to all of us. These mortal challenges allow us and our Heavenly Father to see whether we will exercise our agency to follow His Son." - Robert D. Hales After reading this I knew I had to pull myself together. Relying on my Heavenly Father was what I needed to do the most, and it was the very thing I was doing the least of. His Son, our Savior Jesus Christ atoned for these very feelings and problems I was going through. How could I have forgotten? Here is just a short video clip that I love and pretty much sums up this whole post, watch it! CLICK HERE I began praying more, reading my scriptures more, and doing everything I could to come closer to my Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ. They had been there all along, I just didn't make the effort to open my eyes and see that. During this time I also received my patriarchal blessing. It was the perfect timing. There's a quote by Thomas S. Monson that says, "Your patriarchal blessing will see you through the darkest night. It will guide you through life's dangers." How very true. If you haven't read yours lately, stop reading my blog post and go read it (and them come back ;)) cause really, they are a huge comfort and a blessing. I have received immediate peace whenever I have read mine through a difficult time. Cherish it :) The future can be scary and daunting and we may feel helpless at times but it's important to remember that we have a loving Heavenly Father and Elder brother on our side. They love us. Oh how much they love us... they want the best for us. They want us to be happy! We cannot do it alone. We cannot go through this mortal journey by ourselves relying on our own knowledge. Heavenly Father is Omnipotent and Omniscient . He has a plan for us, each and every one of us. If we rely on him and put our trust in Him, everything will fall into place. He is reaching out to us, let Him embrace you. His arms are always outstretched. Always. This post wasn't the typical Motivation Monday because I meant to upload this yesterday for the usual Sunday post but I just didn't have time. So hope you all enjoyed! Have a fab week. Ness
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"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed." - James 1:5-6 Quote Of The Week:
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